You sound as though you are in a lot of pain right now and that all you want is for your ex husband to come back. Obviously I do not know any of the details as how this has come to pass, therefore is is difficult for me to comment. Praying for things to be different to how they are is what causes us to suffer. When difficult things happen to us, all we want is for things to be different so that we don't have to feel the emotional pain associated with the reality of the situation and invariably because we are afraid of having to come out of our comfort zones and face the unknown future. Many people stubbornly and fearfully cling to what is familiar, because the thought of having to let go and move on is far too frightening. Acceptance of what is is the only way we can live our lives and to know that whatever is happening is for our highest good and the good of everyone concerned. We are here to grow, learn and to expand our comfort zones, not for ensuring one's security. Loving someone unconditionally means allowing them their free will and allowing them to make their own choices, even is these choices seem foolish to us. Loving ourselves means to give ourselves permission to create lives for ourselves which are in keeping with our soul's desires and to learn to truly value and respect ourselves so as to allow only those who truly love, respect and value us into our "personal" space. I send you love from my heart. Bless you. Kat xxx