I was exactly in your shoes once, the exact situation ... I had to realise that if God brought me to that place then even if my husband didn't come back, the Lord would see me through and not just see me through, He would ensure I would be fine. It was hard to let go because I wanted the same outcome as you do but then think about it, if your husband came back and was not loving, kind and faithful, it would make you miserable every day. It was grace that helped me let go and looking back I needed to learn that lesson ... the ability to rely just on my God and know the Peace that can come from Him even when you are in the midst of a situation that you cannot see the out of. So sister trust the Lord to give you just the outcome you need and the grace to help you accept what ever happens knowing He will get you through it. I will pray for you.