Let go....surrender and let it be what it is...I know that is not easy, but it can be done, if only moment to moment...ask for PEACE in your heart, so you can move and not be frozen in your desire for only one outcome...I send you love, light, and may you feel surrounded by love and encouragement to produce the courage to live...may you be blessed....I pray this pray for you and for me...I do not understand why things are as they are either, but we have to trust...trust, trust, trust...I know, sometimes it makes me mad, too....but the alternative is to drive yourself crazy...thinking of you.