Dear Kimberly...I feel the desperation and recognize the same in myself but for a different reason...wanting something so bad, does not make it so...but if we can, when we can, tell our minds (and believe it) that all is in perfect and divine order for our highest good...as much as we can come back to that, I feel we will have peace in that moment and trust in that moment..keep living each day, each moment and trust God for the outcome...the only way I know I am trusting is when I am not in fear of not getting what I want...for me, it is a job...for you, your beloved...I guess we both think we know what is best and I just pray for the highest good for all concerned in all circumstances...we will get through this and past this...I pray with ease and grace and the letting go of the past, accepting what is, and allowing for light, love and abundance to come into our life...somehow, I know that my soul knows more then my mind...so be it. Blessings to you on this day.