Lord please help me see more of you

by Dee
(Fayetteville, NC)

I am Dee, 47 yr.old homeless woman. I have 3 kids, we lost our home, I have no job, only rec. $339.00 per month. I am in North Carolina and my kids in Va. They call me crying for me to come back home, but I have no place to stay there. They are still living in the home that is in foreclosure. I suffer from Bipolar Disorder, no medical ins. Divorced and lonely. No place to call home, I feel like I have truly failed my kids, this hurts me more than anything being away from them.My credit is bad, I stay depressed to the point I pray and ask God to not wake me in the morning, just let me please die. I am hurting so bad. I go to church and I pray, but it is like God is not listening to me anymore.