I have hit rock bottom emotionally. I cannot secure a loan for my son's college and my 16 year old is smoking, disrespectful and does not love us. Heavenly Father, I am not sure I will make it out of this. I have an elderly mother 4 hours away from me that I have neglected because of my home life. I want the Lord to show my 16 year old that he is headed down the wrong path. My poor husband is overworked and tired. All my friends here have abandoned me. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a black hole.
My only solace from this is visiting the local Christian thrift store and gas station. Those people there seem to love me and I feel so special there. They are so good to me and keep me going.
God, all I ask is that I do not go before my mom. I lost a sister last October and is has been hard on her. I have started drinking. I want to stop. I want my son to stop smoking and see what this is doing to our family. I have become afraid of him and he is out of control. Dear God, please help him.
Help me also provide a way for my oldest son to go to college. I was rejected by a loan company and time is drawing to a close.
Father, I love You and You tell us to give uo the yoke. Please take this one away. I love you.