Dear Thomas, I am so sorry for the difficulties you are going through. I understand how painful it is when they seem to go on and on and on, and how much despair it can bring when things do not appear to be getting better. I am glad you requested prayers, and our community will pray for you and hold you in light. I also wanted to let you know we have other supports that you may find helpful such as our Messages by Request service offer by Julie which can help you to gain a deeper understanding of the situation. I will be away from the internet for a week but our community and website visitors will continue to hold you in prayer and light. Blessings,
Mashubi