Can't believe , I am still struggling.

We , as Christian ,have hard time comprehending depression , culture and faith. How can the three for me , two for you, make sense ? I don'tknow, but all I know is God's power guides and protect us at anytime. I have depression for five years on and off. It's tough, I am scared,my emotions are disrupted,and I have no idea what , where to go. But , I still believe.